Feeling Stressed


 

Ako yung tipo ng tao na mahirap magalit (oo di talaga ako nagagalit pramis), mahaba ang pasensya at matiisin. Pero simula nung nagkatrabaho na ko, naiistress na ako sa maliliit na bagay.

Hindi naman stressful ang work environment ko kung tutuusin. Super chill lang ako dun, yung tipong in 1 hour lang tapos ko na lahat ng gawain ko (luh yabang talaga oh), oo pramis madalas nakatunganga lang ako sa opisina.

Madalas ako maistress pag bumibiyahe haha layo kasi. Pero di naman ako galit na nagkukuda, nakangiti pa rin ako pero deep inside naiinis nako haha.

*Pag ako ang huling pasaherong sasakay ng jeep tapos 1/4 ng pwet ko na lang yung nakakaupo.

*Pag tipong 2 minuto na ang nakakalipas pero di ako sinusuklian (pero yung ibang pasahero nasusuklian naman. Di naman malaki yung pera ko)

*Pag papara yung mga pasahero sa hindi tamang babaan tapos magrarant sa driver kasi lumagpas na daw.

*Pag nasa MRT ako tapos nakaharang lahat ng pasahero sa may pintuan eh pwede namang pumwesto sa gitna.

*Pag sasakay ako ng bus tapos tayuan, yung tipong mas nauna pa nakaupo sayo yung mga huling sumakay ng bus (mga taga Imus, Bacoor) kaya mula District hanggang MRT, nakatayo lang ako!!!

*Pag isang oras ka nang nakapila tas wala pa ring bus sa terminal.

*At naiistress talaga ako ng malala pag may nagkakasagutan sa harap ko (halimbawa mga katrabaho ko, or yung mga kapwa ko pasahero na nagrarant, basta kahit anong argumento), disturbing talaga sakin yun kaya pag mag aaway kayo, pls lang huwag sa harap ko. Ang dali kong maapektuhan na feeling ko ako yung inaaway, medyo sensitive ako these past few days ewan ko ba.

Same with jowa, pag nag aaway kami, isa din sa dahilan kung bakit ayokong magsalita kasi nattrigger yung anxiety ko, na masyado kong dinidibdib pag may nagagalit sakin, kaya as much as possible sana maayos agad kasi nag ooverthink ako pag may taong masama ang loob sakin.

Wait lang ang layo na pala ng sinasabi ko sa topic natin. Ayun nga, Mabilis na akong maapektuhan ng external factors kaya ako naiistress.

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Sense of Purpose


 

(Ngayon lang ako magsusulat ng tungkol sa relihiyon, I hope it doesn’t offend anyone)

I’m at this point wherein naniniwala ako sa Diyos pero di ko ginagawa yung mga gawain ng isang Kristiyano (magsimba, magdasal, etc.) kasi?

Hindi naman sa tinatamad. Pero wala akong reason/motivation para gawin yun.

Nung high school at college days ko naaanyayahan ako sa mga events sa Christian Church, at syempre kung gusto ko maging member ng community nila, ganun, pero inaayawan ko rin. Kasi ang hirap mag-commit sa ganun tas di ko rin matutuloy-tuloy.

Nung wala pa akong trabaho, pinagnonovena ako ng tita ko sa Baclaran para daw magkaroon na ko ng trabaho, ginawa ko kasi kailangan ko sumunod, pero deep inside hindi ako naniniwala sa mga ganung pamamaraan kasi, sa’kin pa rin naman nakasalalay ang magiging kapalaran ko?

At eto nga ngayon na may trabaho na ako, tapos karamihan sa mga katrabaho ko eh mga active sa church nila (Catholic, Christian) at may mga araw na after namin mananghalian ay nagkakaroon ng sharing of word of God (na parang bible study). Napapaisip ako na buti pa sila, mga devoted at may intimate relationship with God, pero bakit ako kahit ilang bible verse ang marinig ko, hindi ko ma-absorb?

Nalilgaw na nga siguro ako ng landas. Gusto kong magbalik-loob, pero di ko magawa. Sinasabi ko lang sa sharing kahapon na “Trust in God” pero di ko naman ginagawa.

Ito din siguro ang dahilan kung bakit wala akong kaplano-plano sa buhay, lam mo yun, ang gusto ko lang mangyari eh magkatrabaho lang ako tas sumweldo tas makabili lang ng pangkain at makabili sana ng sariling bahay.. Pero wala akong specific career goal? Sabi ko dati sana ma improve ko pa sarili ko para maging mas confident, pero ilang buwan na ang nakakalipas I’m still the same old sh-. Kasi paano nga naman magbabago ang isang tao kung wala siyang nakikitang mali sa ginagawa niya?

Eh tapos nakita ko ang post na ito.

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Napaisip na naman ako ng malalim. Yung jowa ko ganun din, naliligaw ng landas. Actually sa tagal naming ito, isang beses pa lang kami nagtungo ng simbahan na magkasama (March 13. Quiapo). Kaya siguro hindi pinagpapala ang relationship namin, kasi ganito kami. Dati sabi ko pa naman, sana yung magiging jowa ko, siya ang maglalapit sakin kay Lord. Pero wala naman akong hanash sa pagiging ganun niya. Ang gusto ko lang eh sana dumating yung araw na maging tulad kami ni Treszka at Mark 🙂 Kasi ang hirap nito eh, ako gusto ko kahit papaano umasenso sa buhay (though siya gusto niya rin naman, dami niyang goals), pero di ko makita sa actions niya? Yung parang gusto mo tumaas pero siya medyo kuntento na sa ibaba? Ayoko namang mag isa lang akong umangat, syempre sana siya rin (di lang financial, but yung worth as a person) kasi syempre naiisip ko na na sana siya na, for good, pero nag aalangan din ako kasi kapag ba nagsettle na ko sa kanya, aangat ba kami o lulubog? Yung sana maging ok naman ang future di ba.

Pero sa ngayon, idk, let’s just see what happens.

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The Fault In Our Blogs


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Hello Peeps!

Due to insistent public demand, gumawa po kami ng facebook group para sa ating mga Pinoy Bloggers (na hindi sikat at elite LOL) kung saan maaari tayong tumambay, magtanungan, magkulitan at magpalitan ng mga kuro-kuro.

Originally, mayroong Jologs Bloggers Society na binubuo naming tatlo nila Jirah at Anne at ito sana ang unang na-i-suggest na pangalan ng grupo kaso baka ayaw nung iba na ma-associate sa taguring ‘Jologs’ kaya naisipan na lang na magkaroon ng nominasyon at botohan para sa pangalan ng grupo.

Nagkaroon po ng nominasyon sa instagram kahapon ang labing limang bloggers (na napili randomly dahil hindi pala maaring lumampas sa labing limang katao ang kasali sa isang chat group sa IG) kung ano ang ipapangalan sa grupo kung saan ang nanalo ay ang pangalang ” The Fault In Our Blogs.”

Ito ang mga pangalang isinumite ng mga bloggers:

  1. The Fault in Our Blogs
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Dagat


Pabalik-balik ako sa dagat, paulit-ulit na lumalangoy.
Hanggang sa palalim na ako ng palalim, ngunit ayoko pang umahon.
Patuloy lang ako, hindi natatakot na malunod at hilahin ng mga alon.
Hinihintay ko kasi na sagipin mo ako, kahit alam kong ayaw na ayaw mong lumangoy.

Pero okay lang, hayaan mo ako dito.
Darating din ang araw na magsasawa ako, at aahon kapag nahapo.
Pero sa ngayon, ayos lang na mag-isa ako rito.
Okay lang ako. Magiging okay rin ako ☺

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BAKIT?


 

BAKIT ba gusto mo si Taylor Swift? Ba’t ‘di na lang si Bruno Mars?

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Ako yung,


 

… ako yung una at huling piraso ng loaf bread,

… ako yung balat ng mansanas,

… ako yung unang patak ng Empi Light,

… ako yung pinaka-crust ng egg pie,

… ako yung natutong na kanin,

… ako yung libreng sabaw sa carinderia,

… ako yung sibuyas sa ibabaw ng bistek,

… ako yung bell pepper at raisin sa menudo,

… ako yung labanos at okra sa sinigang.

– Sinasayang mo lang.

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