Daylight πŸŒ…


A short story from reputation and lover. [NSFW]


You’re so gorgeous…

They were having parties with common friends and she already had a crush on him, she used to hate him because of this feeling. She hated the fact that she couldn’t have him so she started to ignore him and then he had the audacity to touch her hand out of nowhere.

I think he knows…

After that, they started chatting and soon they became friends. Also. there was always a strong tension between them but they were hesitant to talk about it. Well somehow their actions spoke and they did what they had to do.

It’s a cruel summer with you…

They decided that they will become friends with benefits. She told him that there would be no rules in this relationship and they would not fall for each other. It would be an unbreakable heaven because you can’t break something that wasn’t made at the first place.

The problem was that she herself was falling for him but she couldn’t tell him about it, because she thought it would affect their relationship & she didn’t want to lose him. She didn’t want to keep it a secret either just so she can keep him. so she finally said it, as she should.

Isn’t it delicate?

She was unsure of whether he’d like her back or not because her reputation was the problem. She started wondering about if he dreams about her or not.

She was also jealous of him seeing the other girls back at home. She claimed that they couldn’t touch him the way she did. She didn’t want to share him & would always ask him to stay the night with her. She would always pretend that he was hers for the whole damn time.

Only bought this dress so you could take it off…

No one knew about their relationship, not even their close friends. Their friends used to think that they are just friends but who’s gonna tell them that she didn’t want him as a best friend. So they had to stay away from each other to avoid the suspicion, but there was always this tension about when it was going to end so they could do what they wanted to do. He was always trying to see the good side of her.

I rent a place on Cornelia Street…

Now somehow even after her confession, their game was going strong. She rented a place so they can play on. They made many memories there and it was going all good but after some days she felt that she was becoming very serious about this relationship but he was not so serious. She thought he was leading her on. So she decided to end this. She packed her bag and decided to leave the place before he’d even know. She was on her way but suddenly he called from behind and confessed about his feelings.

So call it what you want to…

Finally, both of them confessed, it was all a happy happy relationship and they decided to keep it to private. She asked him if he would run away with her and he said yes. After that they went somewhere and everyone didn’t see her for sometime.

But we were dancing with our hands tied…

Then everyone found out! They started digging about her relationship. She knew it couldn’t go any further. Everything started to fall apart and she had a bad feeling that it’d end. BUT STILL THEY WERE DANCING.

And all at once, you are the one I have been waiting for, king of my heart…

She’s in a very happy place right now. She’s happy that they went from friends to this.

Meet me in the afterglow…

There’s never a perfect happy ending in real life. there will always be complications in every relationship. They’ll have to overcome it with their love, trust and passion.

And now I see daylight…

She has found her real love avoiding all the chaos of a bad reputation. β™₯


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I am now opening the curtains to see the clearest, brightest daylight after the darkest night.

credits to @repromantics

Hindi pa Thursday pero gusto ko nang mag-throwback


Gumamit tayo ng mahabang title para appealing tingnan. Charot.

Dahil sa lockdown hanash na yan ay nagpaparamdam na naman sakin ang nakaraan kalungkutang itatago na lang natin sa pangalang depression kaartehan.

So ayun super creative block na naman si ako. Nahihirapan akong magtrabaho. Haha. Sabi ko after ECQ parang ang sarap mag-resign. Well saka ko na ipapaliwanag yung sistema ko sa work from home sa susunod kong post (Coronavirus Hanash) kasi isang bagsakan na yon lahat lahat ng mga hinahanash ko mula March 15 hanggang sa matapos itong ECQ at makabalik ako sa normal kong pamumuhay.

Sinabi sakin ng tita ko na idisplay daw namin sa bahay yung mga graduation pictures at diploma namin. Ayaw ko. Kasi. Wala lang. Feeling ko lang yun ang magpapaalala sa akin ng kinahantungan ng buhay ko ngayon.

Ni hindi ko na nga alam kung saan nakalagay yung diploma ko hahahaha nakalimutan ko na. Kaya kinalkal ko ang buong bahay. Nasaan na ba yon.

Dahil sa marami akong oras para libutin ang aming bahay, nakita kong muli ang mga luma kong gamit – na karamihan ay puro papel. Ah. Mga alaala nung nag-aaral pa ako.

Lingid sa kaalaman ng lahat ay tinago ko lahat lahat ng handouts, quizes, test papers ko – mula elementarya hanggang sa makapagtapos ako. Pero bat yung iba nawawala. Ah baka ginawa nang pang-ningas.

Yun ang magpapaalala sa akin kung gaano kaganda ang reputasyon ko noon. Tapos anong ginawa mo pagkagraduate mo? Bat nagsettle ka sa ganung tao? Char.

So balik nga tayo sa mga nahalungkat ko. Look what I’ve found. Gusto ko picturan lahat ng gamit ko tapos ilagay ko dito kaso, ang haba masyado haha. So heto na lang muna:

Report card ko noong Grade 3. 2004.

Report card ko noong 4th year high school. Dito nagboom yung career ko, kasi, konti lang ang kalaban ko sa honor ranking HAHA LAKAS

Mga journals/essays/projects ko na inilagay ko din dito sa wordpress. Kung babalikan mo yung mga unang taon ko dito.

Resulta ng National Achievement Test ko.

Ngayon ko lang narealize kung gaano ako kapalpak sa buhay haha bakit ngayon ko lang to tiningnan? 80 lang ako sa English. 98 yung Math, Filipino, at Araling Panlipunan. Sabi ko noon gusto ko mag-history degree sa college. Anong nangyari? Bakit ako nag-ABCOMM? Bakit writer ang trabaho ko ngayon? Kaya pala hirap na hirap ako magsulat ng Ingles. Kaya pala bibo bibo ako pag nagtuturo ng math sa katrabaho ko na magte-take ng civil service exam. Kaya pala muntik-muntikan na akong kumuha ng BS Civil Engineering nun. Kaya pala kapag nagsusulat ako ng PR ay nagiging commentary at lumalabas ang dugong dilawan ko. Kaya pala nanghihina ako at walang maicontribute na maganda sa opisina. Kaya pala gusto kong kumuha ng Masters in History sa UP. Kasi. Hindi pala dapat ito ang daang tinahak ko noon. It’s all coming back to me now HAHA THE REGRETS. Pwede ba ako bumalik sa nakaraan? Tapos magsimula muli?

So balik na tayo sa present, iniisip ko din, kung sinunod ko yung nasa NAT ko, makakarating ba ako ng ABS? ng MalacaΓ±ang? or baka.. mas malayo pa pala dun yung mararating ko hahahaha pero look what you’ve done. Hindi siguro ako ganun ka-unsatisfied sa buhay ko. Kahit nakaangat na ako sa laylayan ngayon.

Mas lalo ako nahihirapan magsulat ngayon. Mas nadagdagan yung trabaho namin magmula nung ECQ. Okay lang naman. Ang problema ko lang eh hindi ko siya macompose ng maayos. Hinahanap ko yung old self ko, yung taong nagsulat at gumawa ng mga papel na hinahawakan ko ngayon. Gamay niya to eh. Alam niya kung paano magsulat. Matiyaga siya sa mga ganitong bagay. Nasaan na siya? Pinatay na ng mobile legends, netflix, tiktok? Pinatay ng maling pag-ibig?

But look at the brighter side kasi.

Today marks my first year in public service. April 15, 2019 ako na-hire sa trabahong ito. Gusto ko pa naman magcelebrate. Isang taon na akong nangangamkam ng kaban ng bayan. HAHAHAHA JOKE LANG. Wala nga akong naipundar sa loob ng isang taon.

Akalain mo yun, iniiyakan ko to nung mga unang buwan. Hirap ako mag-adjust. Well hanggang ngayon pala feeling ko naninibago pa rin ako. So the urge to resign was there. Pero mahirap lang tayo teh. Hindi ganon kadali maghanap ng trabaho. Kailangan ko lang isacrifice yung maliit na bahagi ng sarili ko.

The brighter side.

Yung mga sinusulat ko, pinipick-up ng iba’t ibang media. Binabasa naman siguro siya ng mga tao. This is why you write di ba? Heto na yung direct proof na may pinatutunguhan yung mga sinusulat ko.

Ay joke lang. Thursday na pala ito na-post. Valid na siguro eto.


Don’t act as if you’ve been a part of my success. You weren’t here even before I began my journey. Don’t start caring about me now. Charot.

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Sol at Luna


Siya ang pagsikat ng araw habang ako naman ang paglitaw ng buwan. Hindi kami kailanman magkakasabay ngunit alam namin na ang bawat isa ay kaagapay. Hindi man kami magtapo, araw at gabi namin ay buo – ‘pagkat nandiyan siya sa tuwing wala ako at nandun ako sa tuwing wala siya.

Baligtarin mo man ang mundo, we’re still parallel and reflecting each other. Yin at Yang ang isa’t isa.

Spoliarium


“You will forget about your dreams when real world crushes it right before your eyes.”

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Taray, may movie review ulit!!

lizquenmovie-alonetogether1Sometimes, the good memories that turn into regrets are best left behind.

So heto na nga, pinanood ko yung Alone/Together. Napuwing lang ako ng very light. Hahahaha. Nakikita ko yung sarili ko sa mga katangahan ni Tin (Liza Soberano). Yung nangyayari sa kanya dun, medyo nangyayari na sakin in real life. Di to about sa love, pero yung mismong life choices niya, dun ako naka-relate.

Bihira lang ako manood ng pelikula. Di ako madaling ma-hook up or makuha ang atensyon. Ewan ko. May mga romance movies na nababagot ako pag pinapanood kaya di ko natatapos. Pero etong Alone/Together, and the rest ng Black Sheep films, gusto ko, dahil sa realistic approach nila. Dati lagi lang natin sinasabi na, may mga bagay na imposible, na sa pelikula lang nangyayari, pero etong mga pelikula ngayon, may mga ganung scenario talaga sa buhay natin, may mga ganun…

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